It has been a long and difficult week with many tears and much sadness. I realize my blog content has expressed this emotional overwhelm recently, and I am amazed by the support I receive from readers. To all of you, thank you so much for your kind words and prayers.
Even through the hardship—especially through the hardship—this is a time to be grateful. Honestly, all the time is the time to be grateful, but with Thanksgiving and the holiday season upon us, we purposefully take a moment to sincerely reflect on life and its blessings. I am grateful for so much, and I’ll be the first to admit that sometimes my perspective is a little foggy due to emotional hecticness and overwhelm.
I am grateful for…
My little sister flying home from college for Thanksgiving. I’ve been counting down the days until her arrival and today is finally the big day! I keep glancing at the clock, wondering when is too early to jump in the car and pick her up from the airport. I feel like a “Welcome Home” sign is in order to express how unbelievably excited I am. Our dad keeps laughing about how remarkable (and great) it is that we are so close; my sister and I were each other’s archenemies growing up, and now we are best friends. Our relationship began drastically changing after I moved out of the house for college, and it has only grown stronger over the years. I foresee lots of late night giggling, Taylor Swift holiday music, mini photo shoots, wine-drinking, getting our butts kicked by Mom in Cards Against Humanity, and eating Chinese between Thanksgiving leftover meals. I am so unbelievably thankful for my family and I feel so blessed for us to be reunited in the midst of hard times.
The support my family has received during this hardship. Emails, text messages, and phone calls continue flowing in, each and every one of them reminding us of the love and support we have from all corners of the world. I cannot begin to describe how thankful and appreciative we are.
My boyfriend’s understanding nature while I’ve isolated myself, as I tend to do when I grieve. There are no words or actions that can magically lift the sadness and make it all better. However, his simple, frequent statements expressing love and support touch my heart and let me know I am not alone (even if I want to be in that moment). I wish he could be here with me, yet I know he is doing his absolute best for us to be together once again. Our new life is ever more closer and I look forward to it more than anything.
Most of my high school friends will be in town, many of whom I only see at this time of year. This will be our sixth annual After-Thanksgiving celebration, in which we all get together on Thanksgiving night and hang out like it’s the good old days. I’m particularly excited for this year’s reunion because my social life has been next to nonexistent for the past four months (I don’t blame anyone but myself for this) and I’m ready to laugh until my sides hurt.
What do you look forward to as Thanksgiving approaches? How do you express your gratitude?