This afternoon, I was in the middle of analyzing a client’s digital strategy timeline and reviewing it on my calendar when it hit me: I have lived in Sacramento for exactly one month. On January 2nd, I took the biggest and most exciting risk of my life by getting on an airplane with a one-way ticket. It is remarkable how quickly this month has flown by—I honestly think it might be the busiest month I’ve ever gone through, not to mention the difference in my mentality and life structure has never been on such opposite ends of the grid.
One month ago… My stomach was in a constant fit of knots and my head was pounding with questions that had no feasible answers. I was scared, I was anxious, I was stressed beyond belief. I knew in my gut this move was the right choice, yet I wondered just how insane I was for making this huge leap into the unknown.
Today… I woke up with a big smile on my face. The biggest, scariest, and most essential things have somehow, someway, worked themselves out. I feel able to enjoy my surroundings and my relationships. I have newfound confidence in myself. I trusted my gut and pushed through so many obstacles with my partner right beside me. There is still much unknown, yet I feel an immense happiness in each moment of every day that I haven’t experienced before.
One month ago… I was saying goodbye to my beloved dog, who would be staying behind with my mom and dad in Colorado until I returned when my car was fixed. I’ve never been separated from him for so long, and I’m not sure who was sadder. (Honestly, probably me because he got spoiled by Grandma so much haha)
Today… Around 5 a.m., Ollie jumped into bed and we had our traditional early morning snuggle session. He was declared our agency’s office mascot yesterday and will occasionally be joining me at the office. It is so wonderful having my baby back with me and while you can tell he’s nervous with all the boxes and the new environment, he appreciates getting showered with lots of love by his mommy and daddy.
One month ago… I thought I would be working part-time at this advertising agency and I had no idea what kind of workplace, team, or tasks were ahead of me. I was excited to jump into my dream career (that’s what drove me to come out here so quickly, after all), but so nervous. What if I wasn’t qualified? What if my best wasn’t good enough to become full-time? I questioned myself and my abilities because I did not know what to expect or what was to be expected of me.
Today… I scratch my head wondering what part-time even means. And I say this in the best way possible because I truly love my job and thrive off it. Yes, it is challenging, yet incredibly rewarding. You can frequently find me accompanying clients at news studios and photoshoots, multi-tasking on my phone, and working on countless digital projects late into the night. In fact, I’m writing this post in the conference room right now after another long and productive day. My team is amazing (for instance, we’re taking Friday off to go to San Francisco for the NFL Experience!) and I love this small business setting more than I could ever describe in words.
One month ago… The very idea of where I was going to live terrified me. I didn’t know where to even begin looking and with the job incomes we had, we could hardly afford anywhere that met our number one priority of “would we feel safe with me walking Ollie at night?” I was half-heartedly searching online without understanding exactly what I was looking for.
Today… I woke up in our apartment that we love oh so much. It’s in a nice part of town, has a good amount of space (large bathroom, walk-in closet, and nook for an office says it all), and it’s already feels homey despite having no furniture (which comes on Friday or Saturday, more details on that later). Rather than spending hours searching for the perfect place to live online, Jake and I drove around the area we wanted to live and stopped at apartment complexes that looked appealing. That’s how we found this gem!
One month ago… I didn’t have two pennies to rub together. I was scared about where I was going to live, but I was absolutely petrified about how I was going to pay for a security deposit, pet deposit, admin fees, and first month’s rent. I don’t think I can stress this fear enough—if you’ve been in this frightening financial situation, you understand the physical pain that accompanies it.
Today… Our circumstances are slowly but surely turning around (it’s a wonder what happens when you both have full-time jobs). No doubt we still have a long way to go and it is essential we continue budgeting and strategically pay off debt, yet I’m able to look forward with a new, much more positive perspective about our financial situation.
One month ago… This blog was at the back of mind. There was simply way too much going on in my life to even consider taking several hours to write a well-crafted post, create graphic design, publish, and share via social media. I had tunnel vision to begin life in Sacramento.
Today… I recognize I have a lot of catching up to do for this blog and quite a bit of ground to cover. I am doing my best to get back into the swing of things and, more than anything, find a balance between my marketing career and blogging career. I believe the blog makeover will be a big step forward and make me even more proud of this little corner of mine. I’m dedicated to invest more time and energy into it because this my passion and, in its own way, equally as important as the work I do at the agency.
Truth be told, I could go on all evening about the differences between one month ago and today. I think you get my drift though. I know I keep updating you all about how great life is settling here, but I just can’t help myself. This is the most exciting, most rewarding, most incredible adventure I’ve ever experienced—and I am so glad to share it with you.